Stop the night cry ..

If you can meet my husband this morning, he will tell you how tense our morning today.
I am angry, translated not satisfy, filled with anger, feeling under appreciated, feeling under valued and back slide.  I don't speak a word today.

To bring in the story..

It happens that Chloe of 2y9 m is sick. It means no peaceful minutes in the house.
My patients really sum up.. with her unreasonable cry and demand.

Asking cold yogurt drink at 3.00 am in the morning! ( which i gave in after half and hour)
Asking me to refill her drink bottle 3-4 times a night ( is midnight) just for the sake of filling it.
Instructing my sleeping position and get frustrated if i disobey.
Insisting to watch cartoon at wee hours
Crying with unknown reason.

Heck! Is midnight everyone!

I am having a frac-tu-red - not quality sleep for nights.

So tense. > <

During these days, a lot of negative thought may creep in which injecting danger to the relationship.

Relationship needs to nurture and it takes time to build the bridge and a second to collapse it.







My dear daughter,

I am a lousy mum as you know. I never know why are you crying so intensely at night. Are you trying to test our patient or just practising your vocal?

Remember when you are 4 months old, that the first time you cry at night and it continue until now. Luckily, as you grow bigger, the cry subside and mummy have a few peaceful night in a row which mummy appreciate so much.

Hope night cry will become a past tense very soon..thank you very much dear!
May the God shower you with a lot of love and care.

Love-you-no-matter-what ,
Mum.

Year 2012

    As we entering into the month of February, I caught myself constantly running after the time, choking breathlessly.  I haven't had the time to 'gone through' what I have done last year, things to cope up this year and even don't have the time for the New Year resolution yet. Perhaps, I should just forget about it!

My little Chloe (1YO6MO) really make up most of my after work's time now.  Every night, we co-sleep during our breastfeed-sleep section and I will fall asleep.

"I don't have time' is the sentence that I frequently use now. No time for facial, saloon and not so health freak like last time. 

My day started as early as 6.00am, I will straight to kitchen to prepare porridge for Chloe. I need to ready the porridge, preparing breakfast for hubby and me, filling our water bottle, if possible some cleaning, brooming or even mopping.  This morning, I am planning to do some ironing, but alas, Chloe wakes up at 6.30am today and surely I won't risk ironing with her by my side.

      Sometimes, I feel me and Hubby spent too less coupling time together.  I have been focusing on the little one and neglected the 'old' one.  Pressure at works, houseworks and parenting issue sometimes upset me and cause some arguement between us.  I miss the time when we cuddling as a lover, romancing and passionate for each other.  Yes, you read correctly, I am thirsty for affection.

Assure me! In more years to come, when kid grow up, we will have that ' special time' again. Mummy, be strong, raising a kid is worth all the sacrifice as the rewards is more that you can see now!!

Valentine is coming......I shouldn't passively wait, plan something.*grin*