Dear baby boy,
You are officially one year old. Mummy is dread when think back 1 year ago, a night before you are born..the pain come hourly,shorten by half hourly,15 minutes ,3 minutes, and 1min apart for the whole night babe. You are born the next day at 8.54am with 3-4 pushes.pheww..
You make me the worst mother in the world when you are admitted to hospital at 3 months old for 10 days. Those 10 days are like hell for mummy. It is so heart breaking to see you endure the needles and sucking the gas..doctor diagnose you as pneumonia with bronchiolitis.
A visit to the doctor becomes our routine until you are 6-7 months. I can really recall..babe, that is mummy forever nightmare.
In between,mummy also need to wrestling with my own emotion and uncertainty, self-doubt,blaming and pressure to give up my job. Not mummy reluctant to give up the job babe, mummy needs to think further and just cant throw all the responsibilty to provide for family away. It is a pressure and be glad mummy have gone through.
Happy Birthday,my boy. Sister,mummy and daddy love you forever.
